|Posted by oxbrandy3xo on April 7, 2013 at 7:40 PM||comments (0)|
So as always todays a bad day! My fiance decided he didnt want his iphone anymore and traded it for a galaxy s2 off of craigslist & the phone was broken! So now he has no money & no phone. Now he uses his phone for work so hes a little pissed off but hes kind of taking it out on me & i could care less about his phone! When he has a phone i can barely get him off of it to hold a conversation! But anyways besides that my dogs started fighting again today! It started because one of my friends gave each dog a roll & my one dog hid his & the other one walked to close to where he put it. Of course i dont want to see them hurt each other so once again i jump in between them & get bite once again. Its not bad but its so aggravating having to big dogs that dont listen to shit i say! They listen to my fiance but i guess i dont have a deep enougn voice. Im really starting to hate them i know my life would be so much easier if i never got dogs but i love them now & theyre about of our family but idk what to do with them anymore! Im getting so fed up!!
|Posted by oxbrandy3xo on April 5, 2013 at 1:25 PM||comments (0)|
So today i realized alot of people take advantage of life! You always see people complaning on facebook. How their lives are so bad because their bf/gf cheated on them, they couldnt buy them pair of shoes, couldnt go to a concert, petty things that really dont mean much! Everyone has problems in life but it depends how you look at them! If your bf/gf keeps cheating on you, leave them, youll no longer have the problem or the person treating you like shit! Couldnt buy them shoes you fell in love with or go to your favorite concert? Life goes on! If your not homeless or straving then you have nothing to complain about! And when i realized this i realized i am homeless & im straving. i get too eat once a day because thats all i can afford. Id rather make sure my dogs are feed & so is my fiance since he works all day. I always put other ppl before myself but i dont really mind. I think its so funny how i dont eveer complain on fb because i dont want anyone to know my business but my life is so much worst then alot of people i know & they have no idea how lucky they are! If your reading this and have your own issues in life keep your head up! life goes on, the world keeps spining, & everything will work themselves out! Just look at your problem & figure out how your going to solve it instead of complaining about it! it could be much worst!:D
|Posted by oxbrandy3xo on April 3, 2013 at 9:20 PM||comments (0)|
I have something called PCOS (poly cystic ovary syndrome). Since i have pcos me and my fiance are having VERY hard times concieving. It gives me bad pains in my stomach, its deff something i never imagined i would get. Like oh its just a 1 in a million type of thing and i got so lucky to be that 1 in a million. It is a very stressful condition. I have too much male hormones in my body so it causes me to have excessive hair. I have to shave everyday just to be hairless. The only thing i can seem to do to help is smoke marijuana. I know how some people view it as such a bad drug because about 6 months ago i was one of them people! I never thought i would be a heavy marijuana user but my doctor actually told me that he couldnt prescribe it to me but it would deff help so i gave it a try! It does help alot & also helps with my depression from everything else going on! My pcos makes me a very jealous person! When i see a pregnant women or someone with kids i get upset that weve been trying for 2 years and still nothing! My little sister is even pregnant! How could she be having a child before me!? especially since hers was unexpected!
|Posted by oxbrandy3xo on April 3, 2013 at 12:55 AM||comments (1)|
Have you ever felt like giving up on life? I do all the time! Today i finished moving everything into my grandmothers and it was such a horrible day! I feel like me & my fiance are starting to hate each other. This is just too much stress & us fighting isnt making anything any easier. We decided were going to try to stay in our house until our court date which is in 13 days. So were pretty much here with nothing but a couch, blanket, pillows, laptop, & our dogs. It sucks so bad! I never thought i would ever go through this and its so disappointing! I feel like a loser and that ill never go anywhere in life. I dont know how were going to pull this off. I really hate that this is happening to us because i dont want it to affect our relationship. Hes the greatest guy i ever met & i dont want to mess it up but im so stressed im taking alot of it out on him and i know i shouldnt but its just really hard! im so lost & confused! I really just want to give up!!!
|Posted by oxbrandy3xo on April 1, 2013 at 11:45 AM||comments (0)|
As i start to pack everything the more depressing it gets! I remember the joy and excitement that came over me when i packed all of our things to move into our first house together. I think it was the best day of my life. We decided to start our lives together and we loved our house. We had our own privacy, i cooked and cleaned while you worked. We had the perfect lives for a little bit. Even though all good things must come to an end i miss them days very much, but summer of 2012 will never be forgotten! I cant believe how attached i became to our home but we started our own memories here and now we have to leave Now packing knowing that am going from my own 3 bedroom house to live in a basement really sucks! Im not going to have any freedom until we move out. i must always have my two huge pitbulls up my ass at all times. If i leave the house they must come with me. If they eat anything there not suppose to im out on the street. I HATE relying on people. I believe if you want something done do it yourself, but i trusted my fiance and now were at this point. I feel so much hatered, sadness, depression, anxiety, and so many mixed feelings. I dont know who im mad at but i feel like im going to kill somebody or myself. This is just so much to handle especially without any weed, money, or cigerettes!
|Posted by oxbrandy3xo on March 31, 2013 at 2:30 AM||comments (0)|
If you were born into riches your one of the lucky ones! My only wish in life is not to wish for anything. I know that seems kind of impossible but im not a very materialistic person. I just want to be able to live life without worrying how am i going to pay rent, pay bills, feed my dogs, or even myself. I want a normal life and to be happy! but then i think everyone wants that and in life some times you go through rough patchs and i hope this is all this is for me. Right now im going through an eviction and it really sucks! Due to this poor ecomony my husband lost his job about 6 months ago and he became very depressed thankfully now he started a new job about 2 weeks ago and i was only making $120 a week at my job. (that i lost a month ago) That was only enough to buy enough food to last us and our dogs all week, to get me back and forth to work, and cigerettes. So we couldnt pay rent or any bills, its just been a really bad last couple of months especially since this time last year we were able to afford weekly trips to the shore, vactions in south carolina, and to be able to go out and have fun.(im 18, hes 21) Now we have to move in my grandmothers house who recently passed away with our two pitbulls. My uncle, his wife, their daughter, and their dog are already living there though. Its so depressing packing my whole house to move in with people. I enjoy my privacy and love having my own house! Even though its only for a month or so its going to be the longest month of my life! My dogs HATE other dogs and i dont know how were going to make this situatuion work. I wish there was some way out of this but i guess i just tried to grow up to fast and failed But i am going to pick my head up and try to make the best of this because crying all day isnt making anything better!
|Posted by oxbrandy3xo on March 31, 2013 at 2:25 AM||comments (0)|
So this is my first post and i decided to make this blog just to talk about everyday life. Im looking forward to talking to people just like me and understand the problems im going through! I know everyone has problems and go through their own troubles but i think its best to write everything down just to get it out of your system and thats what im going to do with this blog! I hope you enjoy my post and sorry about the site it will start looking better soon!